Trying to catch up with the talented and gifted mankind is a lot of struggle for a gurl whose a mere blunt achiever and nothing else more. This becomes your distorted perception when you have the lowest of the low self esteem. Possessing that alluring confidence is like reaching for the stars. On several moments, I wonder to myself how other people manage to rise above all. Their stories are not at all fairy tales, but they have risen from all the adversities.
A lot of people believes in you, and you know well you possess that kind of extraordinariness, but can't seem to grasp that ambition at its full extent. You cram up when intimidated, pour your heart out over the work, and fail at the very last minute. You are multi-talented (u know that in your heart) but these talents are all scattered in different areas that you only become an average on these areas. You are unconcentrated. You become scared to fail again, to look foolish amidst your audience, to let down the people who expects greatness from you. So you curl up in a ball back to your humble shell, shy and scared.
What's left of you, is your endless imagination which can take you to different places, where there are no limits to deprive you of the things you really really want, where nobody can realistically judge you,where you worry less of other people and just have a time of your life. You often catch yourself dreaming of things, hopefully wishing one day, you'll get the guts to bloom back and just live like you had imagined your life would be. Fearless, kick-ass gurl who thinks more about the essentials in this temporary world and surprise her audience with incredible talent and personality.
A gurl can dream, and I dream to be great.
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